Deep Thoughts by Jack Handy (at least I think that's his name)

***I will probably be sharing some deep thoughts in the next few weeks, so if that isn't your type of reading then visit me again in a couple of week. I think I need the therapy that writing brings. I won't be hurt :-) sometimes I just want to read inspirational posts, sometimes I just want visual eye candy, and sometimes I really want to know how people feel deep down. So I understand :-)***

Today well really right now, I am feeling this intense sadness like I want to cry. I don't think it is over walking away from job as much as feeeling empty because I am not sure what to do next. I don't regret my choice, but I also don't know what's next. Not sure if I want to be called brave or if I want to be babied and cajoled. Just not sure. And I think it is the uncertainess that is weighing me down. It is too early to worry about not finding a job, I have only been applying for a week. I know God provides and that he will place something in my path. But I feel anxious as if ready to move forward. But I can't because I don't know what I am moving toward.



This is a sharp contrast to how I started my morning or maybe it was a prelude. But this morning I felt done. I felt like it should be the end of May now. I felt like I was ready to close this part of my life and start on something new. I was ready to move forward. Maybe the quiet time I spent alone this afternoon made me realize that I didn't know where I was going. If it is not obvious, I don't like feeling lost and I don't like living what I can't plan. I am not a control freak, but I do like to see my boundaries. Reach out and touch them every now and then, maybe even cross the line with my toe. But now, but now I can't see the line, don't know that it is there, and feel free and trapped by the unknown at the same time.



Anyway, I guess I will just move on. Here are my deep thoughts like Jack Handy from Saturday Night Live. At least I think that's what his name is :-) I think I just need to get my thoughts out, so I can collect them and rearrange them and find what works for me. But to be honest, I think I wanted to get them down so that when I go to document this life change, I will have the journaling to use on my layout. LOL, always thinking like a scrapper :-)



ciao

On My Mind

“The saddest places on earth are graveyards. Not because people are buried there, but because dreams, talents and purposes that never came to fruition are buried there. Graveyards are filled with books that were never written, songs that were never sung, words that were never spoken, things that were never done.”

.....this quote is on my mind as is this site by Dan Miller and this course by Oprah and Marcus Buckingham. I have decided to resign from my job on Monday and pray that I find a job in a new field that is fullfilling, renewing, and a function of what brings me joy. Pray for me and wish me luck. I am nervous, but honestly also excited by the new possibilities. I pray that what I find is a new career and not just a job and that it has rewarding potential.

200 year occurence

Yesterday we had a cool experience. Living in the midwest, you don't expect to feel or experience an earthquake, but that is what happened. It was around 4:30 am and it woke me up because I heard the glass shower doors moving and for some reason I thought burgler. But then I realized that the bed was shaking also. I woke Rob up and asked if the wind could be that high or did he think it was an earthquake. It didn't last that long, but it was definitely felt. While at work, we experienced after shocks and my computer monitor and desk shook a couple of times. I am glad that there was little to no damage done in this area. Now I can say I have experienced an earthquake (Missouri), flooding rains (Texas) and a hurricane (Florida). And yes, I have moved around a lot in my adult years :-)

Guess Who is Lucky ?????

It's me. I got an e-mail from Archiver's asking if I would be interested in applying for a small group survey. I said yes and luckily I was chosen. I gave up an hour and half of my time to visit an Archiver's store and talk with marketers about my shopping habits, products preferences, store arrangment, likes and dislikes about Archiver's, class offering, product placement and customer service type of stuff. The reward besides possibly shaping how they work the store............. a $50 gift card to Archiver's !!!!! What could be better ???? It really was a good time. I enjoyed hearing others stories and thoughts and I enjoyed sharing my ideas. One thing they said was in the works.............trying to get a German manufacturer to make 12x12 baskets, so your paper doesn't get bent. How cool would that be. SOOOO, what would you buy with your $50????? I am thinking new paper trimmer or the new Crop a Dile, or a boat load of adhesive, an album and some new Basic Grey :-)

Something New

LOOK at what I have....... NEW GLASSES and I LOVE them. They are super different from my old ones. These are fully rimmed, non metal, black (never had this color before) and they are transition lenses tinted gray. They are sooo cool. I feel trendy in them :-) LOL


This is the After photo.This is the Before photo.

Early Riser

Here's the Story of the Day:

Early Life
I try & get a lot of living in early in the morning before everyone else gets up, because after that, it doesn't seem so much like living as it does putting up with stuff.

****Quotes like this make me wish I was a morning person. If I have something to do, I can get up no problem, but to just get up to attempt productivity just seems undoable to me. So I have decided to do more at night i.e pack my lunch, pick my clothes, pack my gym bag, so I don't have to worry about it in the morning, which does help me feel more relaxed. It does take a bit of discipline to take time out of the evening though. I am hoping that I will be able to keep going b/c I feel so positive about it. (I didn't take the pic :-) I wish that i did though LOL)